Tis The Season

Dec 26th 2008
4:05 am

Currently sitting in the living room of my last childhood place of residence i think on the current status of holiday break... And the only word to sum it all up so far has been DISAPPOINTING!!
It seems that the fuzzy feeling that use to accompany me during this time of year has faded away.. I guess you can say that my hearts gone cold over the years.. Honestly i just don't really give a FUCK anymore. I question a lot how i have become this way a truthfully i cant date back to one exact event or certain time that shifted my compassion, but i can recall on all the events that helped detour it. From the dismal relationships in which i thought i had found true LOVE to only to have been CHEATED on in the end... To the Fight with my father which leaded to me being kicked out his house over $3 worth of food in which i bought.. These are only a few of the events that ill meant cause if i were to sit here and number them out it would take a week to fully list and address all the issues that i have encountered... but on a lighter note it is Christmas and i should stir away from my problems and recognize the true reason for this holiday. This holiday if for family to come together and celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior and give thanks to him for what he gave... He gave the greatest gift of all and the GIFT was his life so that when our time on earth is done we all who deserve it will spend eternity in the gates of heaven with him and his father. so as i sit her and reflect on my holiday i have to re-evaluate my choice of word or at least my feeling on it... I may be disappoint on the lack of gifts or the lack of feeling that it gives me but i must be glad that im with my family that loves me (or the ones that remain) and be great full to the man who gave his life for me to live!!!
So i wish everyone a Merry CHRISTmas and a Happy NEW YEAR!!